||[Dec. 5th, 2008|12:11 am]
tea and oranges
so i started having insomnia about 10 months ago... i'd just go 4 days without sleep and then blissfully pass out eventually. I saw a doctor and she gave me something for anxiety / depression, which made me feel worse. probably cause i'm not depressed. so i stopped taking that shit. the sleep was on and off for a while. another doctor gave me these pills that look like tiny blue footballs and they knock me out just fine, i just can't take them too often cause they'll stop working. so tonight's a no pill night.
so that's that.
i saw a mouse in my room a few minute ago so i got the fuck out of there. scott's coming over the kill it. what a trooper, that lovely man. i mean it's past midnight. i'm staying in the living room till he arrives like some pathetic damsel. what has happened to me? i used to be so tough! fucking plateau apartments... if it's not the mice, it's the awful neighbors, or the lack of light or the street noise and high rent.. you get screwed in so many ways, but the neighborhood is so much better than any other place in this city. i'm gonnna hold out as long as i can.
now excuse me.
my savior has arrived with a small bucket and a pair of working gloves.